2013-09-11

The Souls fo Black Folk


The Forethought
"Before each chapter, as now printed, stands a bar of the Sorrow Songs,-some echo of haunting melody from the only American music which welled up from black souls in the dark past. And, finally, need I add that I who speak here am bone of the bone and flesh of the flesh of them that lived within the Veil?"

Chapter 1. Of Our Spiritual Strivings
"O water, voice of my heart, crying in the sand, 
     All night long crying with a mournful cry,
As I  lie and listen, and cannot understand
     The voice of my heart in my side or the voice of the sea,
  O water, crying for rest, is it I, is it I?
        All night long the water is crying to me.

Unresting watter, ther shall never be rest
     Till the last moon droop and the last tide fail,
And the fire of the end begin to burn in the west;
     And the heart shall be weary and wonder and cry like the sea,
  All life long crying without avail,
       As the water all night long is crying to me.
Arthur Symons"

Chapter 2. Of the Dawn of Freedom
"Careless seems the great Avenger;
History's lessons but record
One death-grapple in the darkness
'Twixt old systems and the Word;
Truth forever on the scaffold,
Wrong forever on the throne;
Yet that scaffold sways the future,
And behind the dim unknown
Standeth God within the shadow
Keeping watch above His own.
Lowell"

Chapter 3. Of Mr. Booker T. Washington and Others
"From birth till death enslaved; in words, in deed, unmanned!

Hereditary bondsmen! know ye not
Who would be free themselves must strike the blow?
Byron"

Chapter 4. Of the Meaning of Progress
Willst Du Deine Macht verkunden,
Wahle sie die frei von Sunden,
Steh'n in Deinum ew'gen Haus!
Deine Geister sende aus!
Die Unsterblichen, die Reinen,
Die nicht fuhlen, die nicht weinen!
Nicht die zarte Jungfrau wahle,
Nicht der Hirtin weiche Seele!
Schiller"

Chapter 5. Of the Wings of Atalanta
"O black boy of Atlanta!
   But half was spoken;
The slave's chains and the master's
   like are broken;
The one curse of the races
   Held both in tether;
They are rising -all are rising-
   The black and white together.
Whittier"

Chapter 6. Of the Training of Black Men
"Why, if the Soul can fling the Dust aside,
And naked on the Air of Heaven ride, 
   Weren't not a Shame- wer't not a Shame for him
In this clay carcase crippled to abide?
Omar Khayyam (Fitzgerald)"

Chapter 7. Of the Black Belt
"I am black but comely, O ye daughters of Jerusalem,
As the tents of Kedar, as the curtains of Solomon
Look not upon me, because I am black,
Because the sun hath looked upon me:
My mother's children were angry with me;
They made me the keeper of the vineyards;
But mine own vineyard have I not kept.
The Song of Solomon" 

Chapter 8. Of the Quest of the Golden Fleece
"But the Brute said in his breast, "Till the mills I grind have ceased,
The riches shall be dust of dust, dry ashes be the feast!

     "On the strong and cunning few
     Cynic favors I will strew;
I will stuff their maw with overplus until their spirit dies;
     From the patient the the low
     I will take the joys they know;
     They shall hunger after vanities and still an-hugnered go.
Madness shall be on the people, ghastly jealousies arise;
Brother's blood shall cry on brother up the dead and empty skies."
William Vaughn Moody."

Chapter 9. Of the Sons of Master and Man
"Life treads on life, and heart on heart;
We press too close in church and mart
To keep a dream or grave apart.
Mrs. Browning."

Chapter 10. Of the Faith of the Fathers
"Dim face of Beauty haunting all the world,
   Fair face of Beauty all too fair to see,
Where the lost stars adown the heavens are hurled,-
     There, there alone for thee
     May white peace be.

Beauty, sad face of Beauty, Mystery, Wonder,
   What are these dreams to foolish babbling men
Who cry with little noises 'neath the thunder
     Of Ages ground to sand,
     To a little sand.
Fiona Macleod"

Chapter 11. Of the Passing of the First-Born
"O sister, sister, thy first-begotten,
The hands that cling and the feet that follow,
The voice of the child's blood crying yet,
Who hath remembered me? who hath forgotten?
Thous has forgotten, O summer swallow,
But the world shall end when I forget.
Swinburne"

Chapter 12. Of Alexander Crummell
"Then from the Dawn it seemed there came, but faint
As from beyond the limit of the world,
Like the last echo born of a great cry,
Sounds, as if some fair city were one voice
Around a king returning from his wars.
Tennyson"

Chapter 13. Of the Coming of John
"What bring they 'neath the midnight,
     Beside the River-sea?
They bring the human heart wherein
     No nightly calm can be;
That droppeth never with the wind,
     Nor drieth with the dew;
O calm it, God; thy calm is broad
     To cover spirits too.
       The river floweth on.
"Mrs. Browning."

Chapter 14. The Sorrow Songs
"I walk through the churchywar
To lay this body down;
I know moon-rise, I know star-rise;
I walk in the moonlight, I walk in the starlight;
I'll lie in the grave and stretch out my arms,
I'll go to judgment in the evening of the day,
And my soul and thy soul shall meet that day,
When I lay this body down.
Negro Song."

The Afterthought
"Hear my cry, O God the Reader; vouchsafe that this my book fall not still-born into the world-wilderness. Let there spring, Gentle One, from out its leaves vigor of thought and thoughtful deed to reap the harvest wonderful. ... Thus in Thy good time may infinite reason turn the tangle straight, and these crooked marks on a fragile leaf be not indeed."

The Soul of Black Folk, W. E. B. Du Bois

My friend

While in an introduction of poetry writing workshop with Mary Leader, one of my fall semester courses, I wrote a letter to my friend using a poetry form, who will graduate in this winter. Due to writing in application for blogposting, even though poem should be single space, it seem double, which really made me frustrated. I am like deep meaning and structured poem. Well. just post it.

 

My friend

Kylie, having known
for three years
since college freshmen
allowed to have, for me,
special comfort, memories
care and friendship, love,
in my history of
early twenties, when
the time period, mostly,
I stumbled, struggled,
easily got confused and hurt;
however, with you, be able
to survive from loneliness.
I am blessed to have you
as a friend in an early age.

Everyday, pray for you;
your family, your people.
Hope my prayer protect
your way, future, and provide
full of happiness.

Don't forget how beautiful
and lovely you are, no matter
what others say.  

Sincerely.

2013-09-10

September 9, 2013


 Due to two hours of nap from yesterday, I could not fall asleep until four in the morning, which made me really upset and frustrated. However, with alarm ringing, I got up about five thirty, but closed my eyes again. Once again I opened eyes at seven, but with tiresome, I stayed at the bed thirty minutes. Not being able to fall asleep is really frustrating and angry moment yesterday. I blamed on everything happening. Well, sleeping well is the best present that human beings ever get.

"Blood Drive"
It was my first blood donation in the United States, and in my entire life. I realized how healthy I am through survey before taking the blood out. Since a huge needle went into my thin left arm, I was scared to death and cannot even see what was going on. They gave me a bottle of water and some snack to take my blood, but still feel great.

However, taking blood out made me tired and take more nap than yesterday ... :(


2013-09-09

Sky

What a beautiful day and love to take pictures of sky.

September 8, 2013



 In the morning, I opened my eyes at 4:30 a.m., but because it was too early for me to wake up, I tried to sleep again its time became full of dreams, I cannot even remember. 

Anyway, as always, I went to church and listened to sermon on Psalm 86:1-4, (KJV),

"Bow down thine ear, O LORD, hear me: for I am poor and needy.
Preserve my soul; for I am holy: O thou my God, save thy servant that trusteth in thee.
Be merciful unto me, O LORD: for I cry unto thee daily.
Rejoice the soul of thy servant: for unto thee, O LORD, do I lift up my soul." 

While listening to sermon, one idea, "is the way you think like Pharisees," stroke me and made me confess on what I've thought and done. Even though knowing that have no right to judge others since we all are same, I always made my own excuses to make a judgement. Trying not to judge others is very hard for me, maybe for people and Christians, to stop from the influence of Adam and Eve eating the fruit of tree of knowing good and evil. 

After church, went to Payless and "Hana mart," Korean supermarket in West Lafayette, IN, and ate a double cheese burger at Daily Queen in Purdue West. After eating a double cheese burger and talking with friends, went to take a nap, really good one, lasting two hours. I personally think that Daily Queen's double cheese burger is the best! Even better than McDonald.

While watching a television show, it mentioned Victor Hugo's "The Man Who Laughs," which definitely grabbed my attention and intellectual interest. Even though the movie, Les Miserables, made me interested in Victor Hugo, not enough to made me read a book-not sure why; however, this one and interests in him made me desire to study French and read in his own language. I am not sure I can complete it or not, but if get a chance, I really want to study about him, since he is the one I am dreaming of, "poet, playwright, novelist, essayist, visual artist, statesman, and human rights campaigner."

Also during searching for cool postcards, I found out one of the way reading books, making reading postcards, drawing a picture on the front and writing words to a main character, author, or another reader. I am really bad at drawing, but since desire to make a good one, may read some book about drawing. 

Well. I failed to manage my time, but still dreamed and planned my challenges. 

Key words for my desire
  1. W. E. B. Du Bois
  2. Victor Hugo
  3. Jane Austen
  4. Stephen King
  5. John Milton
  6. French
  7. German
  8. Chinese
  9. Japanese
  10. English
  11. Hebrew
  12. Latin
  13. Photography
  14. Climbing
  15. Reading books
  16. Writing poetry and stories
  17. Drawing
  18. knitting
  19. Playing guitar
  20. Bible!!!!!!!!!

2013-09-06

Change

When I was a young man, I wanted to change the world. I found it was difficult to change the world, so I tried to change the nation.

When I found I couldn't change the nation, I began to focus on my town. I couldn't change the town and as older man, I tried to change my family.

Now, as an old man, I realize the only thing I can change is myself, and suddenly I realize that if long ago I had changed myself, I could have made an impact on my family.

My family and I could have made an impact on our town. Their impact could have changed the nation and I could indeed have changed the world.

- Words on a tombstone of an Anglican bishop buried in Westminister Abbey

 

While looking at my memos on my iPad, I found this note. I cannot remember where I got this one, but it is pretty famous words. I do really agree that only thing I can change is myself, and its impact will change the world. From now on, I will put as much efforts as possible on changing myself for good and hope its impact change my surrounding.

  1. Sleep early, and start a day early.
  2. Put some oxygen into cells in the morning. (exercise)
  3. Drink 3 bottles of 500ml water.
  4. Always smile and do my best on everything I have to do.