at four in the morning

at four in the morning,

After calling a day,

while going back home,

I looked up and saw

thousands of thousands of stars

twinkling brightly at where

they should be.

All day long, wrestling with

thick, heavy, dark clouds

made up of unanswered prayer

and full of rain, desperately 

depressed and defeated,

“Am I abandoned?”

asked I, and soon realized

shining stars keep shouting out

about the truth of life and love,

“You are a special, beloved

daughter, and at the rigth time,

all your wishes will come true.

Do not be afraid.

I am your shield, your very great reward.”


Although I wrote this poem for my poetry workshop, it is my personal story. While looking at stars, they always reminds me of the Bible verse, "Do not be afraid. I am your shield, your very great reward (Genesis 15:1)," and gave me unmeasurable peace in my heart. Sometimes without proper reason, depression stroke me and dragged me down to the bottom. I cannot avoid emptiness and loneliness. Last two to three weeks, because of being afraid to be get hurt, I tried to ignore and reject the truth and how I felt, which made me so down and lonely; however, after studying late, I accidentally looked up and saw the twinkling starts. It amazed me and its beauty overwhelmed me with peace and calm. While work-shopping, there were several good suggestions for better version, but I just put the original one. No matter I used the cliche image, such as shining stars and truth of life and love, it was exactly the way I felt and the way I was learned from the moment.